My fifth year of going to Steubie (2007) was amazing. There was adoration Friday as well as Saturday. And both nights I
experienced it to the full. No making myself feel inspired... I WAS inspired.
"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man,
I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know
in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known." 1 Corinthians 13:11-12
Friday night during adoration I couldn't stop smiling. I've wanted to live in Never-Never Land for so long; I didn't
want to grow up. This being true, I still wanted to be a better leader. God let me know that He would help me to do so.
He'd help me to "grow up" and it would be okay and He'd help me become a better leader. It was the first time
I felt like I could really be a leader and the first time I felt free to be completely myself. Instead of feeling like I
had to follow what others were doing during praise and worship I did what I felt called to do. It was the first time I really
understood the Holy Spirit and let it work through me. June 15, 2007 was the day I "became an adult", the day I
"grew up". I was terrified and honestly I still am but I know that God will help me and He'll be there for me,
the Holy Spirit will work through me.
All weekend He kept telling me that my future husband was there that weekend. Maybe there's a guy there that I met and
I'll marry him someday but maybe He was talking about Himself and he wants me to become a nun. I don't know but I'll find
Saturday during adoration, as the blessed sacrament was being walked out the door I saw the robe of Jesus as though it
was a ghost. It was the brightest white I'd ever seen. And as he exited the room, He promised to me as He promised to the
apostles the Holy Spirit (John 14:15-31). I must go so I can send my spirit to be with you forever. Though Jesus was leaving,
he sent his spirit to be with me always.